Thursday, September 26, 2013

{Review} Arsen by Mia Asher

I have to start off by saying I was not going to review this book, I was just going to read it and see what everyone was talking about.. 
I was WARNED, I was FREAKING WARNED that this book would kill little pieces of me before the end and I didn't listen, I was like ehhh I am sure it won't be THAT bad but it was, it totally was... 
Here is my review for:



One glance was all it took…

I'm a cheater.
I'm a liar.
My whole life is a mess.

I love a man.
No, I love two men…
I think.

One makes love to me. The other sets me on fire.
One is my rock. The other is my kryptonite.

I'm broken, lost, and disgusted with myself.

But I can't stop. This is my story.
My broken love story.

MY THOUGHTS

I am still in a book fog because of this book and I do not know which way I want to go with this review.. 
I loved this book, I HATED this book and I have no IDEA what to rate it..
Do I rate it 5 because the writing was THAT good?? DO I rate it less because the subject matter was unsettling and I HATED the main character??? 

I. HAVE. NO. IDEA

So I am going to tell you everything that I thought about this book instead..

Cathy, is a woman who is very lost, depressed because she can't do something that most woman can and it eats her alive.
 Instead of talking about it, she keeps it buried deep within her soul. This thing becomes an entity of itself, blackens her soul and takes on a life of its own. 
She starts to feel black, she gives up, she doesn't want to face it anymore and she's just broken. Her spirit crushed by each aching pain inflicted and she's buried deep within the blackness..

Her husband, her beautiful angel of a husband, Ben is trying so hard to keep her above the surface of the blackness that has consumed her soul but he is losing this battle and she is slipping further and further away from him. With each missed call, text, lonely night spent alone because she was "busy"... pieces of him start to die too.

They are broken..

“I am sorry. I am so fucking sorry for not being able to give you... but you are enough. You are more than enough for me. You’re my fucking world, babe. And I need you back. Please stop shutting me out, I can’t take it anymore........
 Own me, fill me, break me, repair me, complete me. Do whatever you want to me. Just stay with me. I need you. I need to be able to live. I need my life back, I need you back.”

Arsen.. oh sweet, beautifully broken Arsen has his own demons to fight and he thinks helping to fix Cathy's will help to heal him too or that they can heal each other.. He takes what isn't his to take, offers things he should not offer and then when he gets what he wants he does what he always does and screws it up. 

Cathy cheats over and over again with Arsen and she doesn't feel guilty, she cannot be made to feel guilty because she is finally feeling something other than blackness. She is being carried to the surface a little bit at a time, every time she is with him.
 It's like she can breathe, live, and love for the first time, all over again. 
But what she feels cannot last, the relationship was built on a foundation of lies, lust, and cheating. That is not a solid foundation that a relationship can blossom from, it is rocky at best, they cannot trust one another. Arsen gets jealous and angry, while Cathy just has to take it because....well... he's right...

So here it is.. 
The subject matter was hard to swallow, it did not go down easy and there were parts where I just couldn't read... I just couldn't!! 
Cathy was being a big cunt, I understood her, I felt for her and her pain I understood it but I just couldn't get over the pain she was inflicting on to Ben... She broke MY heart and all I wanted to do was reach through the book, grab Ben and stuff him in my pocket to protect him from what was coming...He was what every woman wishes her husband will be and what every man should strive to be like...I LOVED HIM!!

"Late Sunday morning. I watch as my husband’s large and powerful body falls to the ground in surrender. Broken… by me."

Even though I HATED the subject matter itself, I actually loved the whole concept of this book.. 
Now you might be thinking, 
"What??? this bitch has lost her mind, no way could this book be anything but horrible when it comes to the subject matter!!.." 
But hear me out first..
I will never ever ever condone cheating... it is WRONG and NOBODY wins when someone cheats but this book was kind of like a cautionary tale of what can happen when you do cheat. What happens to the people when temptation and lust overshadow true love. What broken people can become even if they think they are getting everything they want.. 
She took a subject matter that most people consider awful and used it to teach a lesson to readers about the what ifs.
(Of course I don't know for sure if she was trying to do that but thats what I took away from it)

I thought long and hard after reading this book, about my marriage, about my husband, about how easy love can fall apart and how HARD it is to keep it together.. 
Marriage is a lot of work but the best ones are worth fighting for..

"Falling in love with someone is easy. It’s loving when the newness has worn off, when life gets tough, when things get in the way, when physical passion is gone, that true love remains. When love can conquer it all.”

It had me thinking about all of this and making me appreciate everything I have, making me grateful for the love that my husband and I share. We may drive each other effing crazy but at the end of the day he is my everything and I couldn't love him more than the day I met him.. 

Plus, the author didn't hold anything back to make it easier for her readers to read. She let it progress, wrote everything; every thought, every feeling and also let the reader experience it for themselves. 

She did such an AMAZING job portraying the hurt, pain, anguish, betrayal, love, lust, and heartbreak of these characters.. 
She reached inside my heart and soul and stole little pieces of it and I came out on the other side of the book in a pile of mixed emotions. 
I thought I have been emotionally unstable before because of a book but she gave me a whole new meaning of emotionally unstable!! 
I was seriously damaged after this book but I definitely enjoyed each soul-crushing minute of it!! 
And LEZ-BE-HONEST the sex was freaking HOT,even if most of it I was cringing because in my mind I knew it was fifty shades of fucked up ;)

The only thing that made me disappointed was the way it ended, I wanted a little more and a different type of epilogue because I think as a reader I needed to see what happened after the rainy day on the street..What exactly happened? How did it progress? There was just so much happening I wanted to see the steps that it took. 
(I am being vague because I don't want to give anything away)
Also, it took me a while to get into it but once I did, you could not pull this book from my hands.. I was a raging bitch to anyone who tried to interrupt my reading time.. 
I NEEDED to finish it, it was a matter of life or death people!!!! 

AMAZING JOB MIA ASHER can't wait to read more from you in the future because YOU my dear are FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!!!!!

If you want to join in on the crazy here are the links to her book:





Monday, September 23, 2013

A Little Too Far by Lisa Deserochers

Taboo Taboo Taboo... Here is what I thought about:




Have you ever gone just a little too far?

Lexie Banks has.

Yep. She just had mind-blowing sex with her stepbrother. In her defense, she was on the rebound, and it’s more of a my-dad-happened-to-marry-a-woman-with-a-super-hot-son situation. But still, he’s been her best friend and confidant for the better part of the last few years … and is so off limits. It’s a good thing she’s leaving in two days for a year abroad in Rome.

But even thousands of miles away, Lexie can’t seem to escape trouble. Raised Catholic, she goes to confession in hopes of alleviating some of her guilt … and maybe not burning in hell. Instead, she stumbles out of the confessional and right into Alessandro Moretti, a young and very easy-on-the-eyes deacon … only eight months away from becoming a priest. Lexie and Alessandro grow closer, and when Alessandro’s signals start changing despite his vow of celibacy, she doesn’t know what to think. She’s torn between falling in love with the man she shouldn’t want and the man she can’t have. And she isn’t sure how she can live with herself either way.

My Thoughts

I don't even know what to say or where to begin with this review.. This book was just amazing!! 
While reading this, I kept telling myself.. "Ok I am going to read ONE more chapter..ok ONE more chapter after this one... UUGGhh I can't stop reading it now something is going to happen"... and by 3am I had a completed book!! It just grabbed my attention and told me that if I stopped reading I was going to regret it, I gave a new meaning to DEVOURING...

Lisa did such a great job with these "taboo" subjects and made it intriguing, captivating, and an all around enjoyable read. 

Lexie is a college student about to embark on a journey to Rome to study for a year abroad. She is using this time away to not only study and experience life but also to get away from the past and her EX. What she doesn't expect is a couple days before she leaves, she ends up sleeping with her step-brother. 

"Never during any of it, even once we're both naked on my bed, does any part of me feel like we shouldn't be doing this. All of a sudden, he isn't my stepbrother. He's everything I've ever needed"

At first I think this is a little weird, they've been stepbrother/sister for a long time, why now? Why after their parents been married all this time that they decide to rip each others clothes off?

But reading more I get a sense that this is just something that needs to be explored further but with a new resolve to leave the past behind her, Lexie leaves for Rome trying not to think about the passionate and sensual orgasm she just had with her step-brother. 
(Yeah GOOD LUCK with that girrrrlll)

When she finally gets settled in Rome, she also never expects to meet Alessandro, a soon to be priest. She thinks he is sexy as sin and that is exactly what he is.. pure sin. 
Even though she knows she shouldn't, she flirts and begins to lust after this soon to be priest. With lines that should never be crossed, Alessandro and Lexie start forming a more than friends vibe but what happens when Lexie can't get her step-brother out of her head? 
She knows she shouldn't be trying to get over him by flirting with Alessandro buuuuuuuuttt try telling her vagina and head that!

I enjoyed this story, the author makes you fall in love with both male characters and your heart and mind are just as conflicted as Lexie's. I had no idea who I wanted Lexie to end up with but I was enjoying the ride with her. She was a great leading character, she wasn't annoying and she grew in this story, making it an all around enjoyable, crazy, wild, read. 

The taboo nature wasn't too heavy to where I was grossed out and I didn't even remember  that Trent was her step-brother because they just seemed to complete each other. Fate seemed to be working for them, they needed to be together.. It wasn't a matter of "if" it was a matter of "when"... Plus the sex was freaking HOT.. Oh My GOD!! 
;)

The only thing I didn't like was the way it ended... The best friend's role was still a mystery and I was hoping to get more about what happened to them after the confession at the end ( I won't go into more detail because I don't want to ruin it)...
 Other than that though, the book was freaking fantastic and I recommend it to EVERYONE.. well as long as you don't mind a lil taboo ;)

I give this book a 4.5/5 and I suggest getting it ASAP!!




Wednesday, September 18, 2013

{Review} Reality by Dani Hart

For the first time ever, I have no idea what to rate a book.. This book was just.. I don't even know.. I am going to try and get down everything I thought about it and I will decide then..


I am Arie Belle and up until my mother’s unexpected and mysterious death my life had been pretty simple, but then things became dark and, at times, hopeless. Even my uncanny ability to communicate with nature had turned its back on me. My only saving grace is my lifetime friendship with the boy next door, River, whom I had always thought of as my soul mate up until my eighteenth birthday when everything seemed to change. My body tingles with heightened sensations and my emotions veer out of control. They are further tested when Ashe, a beautiful stranger with a powerful draw, enters my life and challenges my heart and soul. Amidst the rush of feelings after years of numbness, my true destiny slowly unravels and my journey to find out what I am, to find my mother’s killer, and stop my own death becomes a frantic rush before the next full moon.

This powerful story encaptures the true meaning of love and the dark corners of life that can either suck you in or save you.

My Thoughts

One of my followers on Facebook told me they were reading this book and that it was GOOD and it was SAD.. 
Pssshhh SOLD I love me some books that can make me sad, I LOVE the feels, even when I am cursing the author for making me FEEL!!

So I ask the author politely if I can read and review this book for her before it was released.. I needed something different, I was being burnt out from the same 'ol book/love story/HEA and I thought this one was right up the alley of what I wanted to get me out of my slump..
I was RIGHT!!

I am going to start with the dislike because I want to end this review on a good note.. The only thing I did not connect with was the main character, I thought Arie was...I don't know the right word for it.. I know she was a lost soul since her mother died and she was trying to find herself in the world/nature, trying to figure out her past, where she came from. I understood all of that but I just couldn't connect with her like I wanted too. I liked her but I wasn't in love with her, its one of those I need to read the rest of the series to be able to really connect and know her.. 
DISCLAIMER: I also didn't like Bella when I first read Twilight, she actually got on my last nerve in New Moon and I wanted to shank her and steal Edward for myself but that's just me ;) (def not Rob Pat though, EW NO).. 
So, it is not like I won't like Arie, I just need more from her.. 
She needs to grow a little more and I think I will fall for her..

Ok enough of that, let's move on to the one thing I absolutely, positively, ADORED in this story.. 
The originality was SUPERB.. 
The concept and plot was just incredible.. 
I don't know if I should explain it or not, this is what I was struggling with when thinking about what to write. The big reveal is what Arie is and what she means to nature, in general so if I talk about what she is I don't want to ruin it for all of you who have NOT read it..
so I am going to keep this kind of vague..

Arie is very important, there are things that only she can restore back to order and it is up to her. She has to make decisions and these decisions affect (effect? I never freaking know the difference) her kind...
But with all of this, there is a deeper message on a deeper level than what we are reading. The author kinda dives deeper into the essence of life and how everyone has an essence that lives on, even if our physical bodies do not. 
But we also can't mess with destiny and fate, only they can decide what happens. Even if we want to blame ourselves for things happening, we can't, we have to trust and believe that fate and destiny know what they are doing. 
It's kind of being blind, while living your life. 
You just have to have trust and faith.
INCREDIBLE

I also couldn't put this book down once I got really into it, it was a little slow at first but when it picked up, I was eagerly turning the pages to find out more. 
I LOVED River, absolutely loved him!! 
He was Arie's best friend and biggest confidant, he was always there for her and I really hope.... well we will leave it like that ;)

This book was very whimsical, always keeping you guessing, it was a little confusing at times but if you keep going you will eventually figure it out. It also sticks with you long after reading it..Leaves you wondering about life in general and whether or not our essence can really live on through nature.. 

This is also YA-Paranormal.. some steamy moments but its pretty PG13..

I give this book a 4/5 and if you want to check it out for yourself, it is set to be released on September 23rd, 2013 
(my brother's birthday ;) 






Thursday, September 12, 2013

{COVER REVEAL} Four Seconds to Lose by K.A. Tucker

Set to be RELEASED:
 November 4th, 2013!!!


ABOUT FOUR SECONDS TO LOSE:
Owning a strip club isn’t the fantasy most guys expect it to be. With long hours, a staff with enough issues to keep a psych ward in business, and the police regularly on his case, twenty-nine year old Cain is starting to second guess his unspoken mission to save the women he employs. And then blond, brown-eyed Charlie Rourke walks through his door, and things get really complicated. Cain abides by a strict “no sleeping with the staff” rule. But being around Charlie challenges Cain’s self-control…and it’s been a long time since any woman has done that.
Twenty-two-year old Charlie Rourke needs a lot of money, really fast, in order to vanish before it’s too late. Taking her clothes off for men makes her stomach curl but Charlie tells herself that at least she’s putting her acting and dancing skills to good use. And though her fellow dancers seem eager to nab their sexy, sophisticated, and genuinely caring boss, she’s not interested. After all, Charlie Rourke doesn’t really exist—and the girl pretending to be her doesn’t need to complicate her life with romance.
 Unfortunately, Charlie soon discovers that developing feelings for Cain is inevitable, that those feelings may not be unrequited—but losing him when he finds out what she’s involved with will be more painful than any other sentence awaiting her.

ABOUT K.A. TUCKER:

Born in small-town Ontario, Kathleen published her first book at the age of six with the help of her elementary school librarian and a box of crayons. She is a voracious reader and the farthest thing from a genre-snob, loving everything from High Fantasy to Chick Lit. Kathleen currently resides in a quaint small town outside of Toronto with her husband, two beautiful girls, and an exhausting brood of four-legged creatures.

WHERE to BUY:

ALSO,
TEN TINY BREATHS will be RELEASED on PAPERBACK:
September 24th, 2013!!!!! 



LINKS TO STALK AUTHOR:




Tuesday, September 10, 2013

{Review} Unscrupulous by Avery Aster

SO this crazy author hair-assed me on Goodreads (no not really) wanting to know if I would read her book.. And of course I said YES because I honestly can't say NO to anyone.. I'm such a book slut ;) ANNDD she was really sweet/sassy with her hair-ass-ment that I couldn't possibly say NO!!.. 
Anyway, I downloaded this book onto my Kindle and here is what I thought about:


Book 2 in The Manhattanites series
At thirty-three Warner Truman is one of the richest men on the planet, a spa mogul who buys and sells resorts at will. He holds powerful executive’s careers in his well-groomed hands. Nothing is beyond Warner’s reach…until he meets her.
Stunning, tantalizing, and perverse, Taddy Brill captivates Warner’s carnal desire like no woman he’s ever met. A self-made millionaire, Taddy is tougher than steel, more brilliant than diamonds and, at twenty-seven, she’s never depended on a man for anything…until she meets him.
The more Taddy plays with Warner’s affections, driving him to erotic heights, the more she is confronted by a dark past. But before she can love him, Taddy must meet her worst fears head-on or risk losing it all, including herself.


My Thoughts

So I imagine that if Fifty Shades of Grey and Sex and the City had a book baby that this would be it.. 
It had both the sassy, sexy, couture of SATC and the kinky, I am going to fuck your ass and fuck you anywhere I want, like FSOG..

This book is part of a series but can be read as a standalone and follows the story of Taddy Brill (AkA Tabitha Adelaide Brillford) and Warner Truman. They are both rich, moguls who run their own businesses. I liked how the author made Taddy have her own money and determination in life. She wasn't looking for someone to take care of her, she just wanted someone to give her mind blowing sex whenever she desired (what woman with a working vagina wouldn't). Enter Warner, who had all the money he wanted but was looking for an equal to share it with. He didn't want to deal with the gold digging hussies and he wanted someone with their own future and goals. 

"She came hard enough to start the day with a smile. No Baden Cosmetics rouge on her cheeks required"

It was like a match made in porn heaven. 
While Taddy got to feel Big Daddy, Big Daddy got to fill her up. But hot chemistry and mind blowing sex does not make a relationship. 
Taddy is distant and at times cold because she can't deal with her feelings. She is better at running a company not actually FEELING something for someone. Warner scared Taddy right out of her Louboutins and Warner wanted to own her mind, body, heart, and soul and of course he was used to getting what he wanted. 
Taddy was resistant, she had some trust issues stemming back from her parents being ultimate assholes. But what happens when she pushes away, will Warner let her go? Can she learn to love him?  

There was no lack of sexy in this book, it was there, it was ALL over it. Whether it was talking about sex, fantasizing about it, or actually doing it, the characters never really lacked orgasms 
(of course not unless they were too busy being CEOs and running companies and shit). 

“Please do not masturbate while I do your feet. I cannot take another moaning horny white woman this week.” 

There were a couple of things that put me off of this book and then there were things that I totally loved.

Dislikes: I didn't get emotionally invested with the characters. I couldn't really relate to them, my vagina was all for them but my heart and mind were a little "ehhhh".. 
Taddy's mother and father.. I still have no idea what happened there. Did her mom intentionally make her father disown Taddy? Did her dad ever talk to her? Taddy's real father was kind of obvious but did Taddy ever figure it out?? 


 Unresolved issues are the devil Bobby!!! 

Last but not least.. I will NEVER EVER read a book with the word "scrotum" and think "Oh scrotums get me hot and bothered, I love me some scrotums"... ahhhh I think I found a word I HATE worse than moist.. ;)

LIKES/LOVES: Besides using the word scrotum, the sex was freaking HOT and not just HOT but effing erotic!! I had to fan myself a few times and then take a cold shower or pretend I didn't just get totally turned on by a book and give my husband that look, like yeah we are about to do this.. look 

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The banter back and forth between the friends was priceless and laughing your ass off funny!! I love me some good banter. I also loved Taddy's determination (almost annoyingly stubborn, it was on the line) but she was strong and not really a whiner she took shit in stride and loved the ones that proved themselves invaluable to her. I liked that, I liked that a LOT!!

Overall I give this book a 3-3.5/5 and if you want to check it out for yourself go here:








Monday, September 9, 2013

{REVIEW} Bully by Penelope Douglas

I have so many things I want to say about this book... Lets see if I can get them all down..


My name is Tate. He doesn't call me that, though. He would never refer to me so informally, if he referred to me at all.

We're neighbors, and once, we were best friends. But then, one summer, he turned on me and has made it his mission to screw up my life at every opportunity. I've been humiliated, shut out, and gossiped about all through high school. His pranks and rumors got more sadistic as time wore on, and I made myself sick trying to hide from him. I worried about what was around every corner and behind every door.

So I left.

I spent a year studying abroad and bathed in the freedom of life without Jared. Now I'm back to finish up high school and get the hell out of here forever. I'm hoping that after a year of breathing room, he's moved on and forgotten all about me.

But even if he hasn't changed, I have. I'm not interested in avoiding him or turning the other cheek anymore. We're going to go head to head, because neither of us wants to back down.

My Thoughts

I didn't think I was going to love this book as much as I did. I mean it is about a big bad Bully who likes to make a girl's life a living Hell but there was something about this Bully that pulled me in and kept me thinking about WTF his problem could be. I also couldn't figure out why in the HELL this chick could be attracted to this guy and want to have him anywhere near her lady bits when he was such a douchenozzle??

But she knew what it was like to be loved by him as a child, he was her best friend and it is hard to get over something like that no matter how mean he could be. 

Jared was Tate's best friend and they did everything together as kids until something happened to Jared that caused him to change and you know that saying, "you hurt the ones you love the most", that was true here because the only person Jared could lash out at was Tate and deep down he knew that Tate would take it, but she couldn't take it anymore and she started fighting back. 
She still loved him and missed him as a friend but 
enough was enough.

“You were my tempest, my thunder cloud, my tree in the downpour. I loved all those things, and I loved you. But now? You’re a fucking drought. I thought that all the assholes drove German cars, but it turns out that pricks in Mustangs can still leave scars.”

Jared also lived by the rule of "if I can't have her nobody else can either". He would intentionally spread lies about Tate to get guys to either be afraid of her or disgusted by her. 
I just couldn't figure him out! What was his problem? Why did he contradict himself so much? He bullied Tate pushed guys away from her but didn't want her for himself, made her life a living Hell but would also stand up for her.. 
Did he like her? Did he hate her? Did he just like seeing her hurting? 
And even though he was doing all of these awful things I was still rooting for him, still getting crazy butterflies rolling around and I just couldn't help it, there was something about him that pulled me in and like a moth to a flame I couldn't pull away! 

"Tatum?" His voice sounded soft and gentle, and I instantly felt warm all over. But then he spoke again. 
"I wouldn't care if you were alive or dead."

Then that infamous speech and stuff started to change and we finally get down to the root of the problem and I was like hmmm.. 
I won't go into too much detail but I do think Jared had a lot of ass kissing to do and he didn't redeem himself enough for me BUT I still loved him hard core. 

And can I say that from the very beginning of this book the chemistry between Jared and Tate was effing COM-BUST-IBLE!! I felt it all the way to my toes and even when they were screaming at one another, I felt it, I felt the underlying current that would have ignited with just one taste!!

I loved this story, it pulled me in and I fell in love with Tate, I seriously loved her as a character... 
She DIDN'T annoy the ever loving shit out of me and despite being called names and being picked on, she was STRONG. She didn't take shit to heart and just let it roll right off of her. BUT the best thing about her was her ability to love despite it all. 
She was AWESOME!

I also enjoyed the relationship between her and her dad. There needs to be more stories with strong parental relationships because those relationships are the basic building blocks of future relations. 
Without a healthy foundation most of your relationships in the future will probably be built on rocky ground... 
(Sorry the psychology student in me came out)

Overall I give this book a 4.5/5 stars and I can't wait to read more from this amazing author!!

If you want to check this book out for yourself go here:



Friday, September 6, 2013

{REVIEW} Watch Over Me by Tara Sivec

Sigghh I freaking LOVE Tara Sivec
She is such a versatile author who can write books that make me laugh so hard I pee myself to books that will gut punch and break my heart all at the same time. 
I never know what I am going to get when I crack open one of her books and I love that about her the most...

Watch Over Me was one of those books that left me cracked and had me thinking about it LONG after I was done reading it. 

Here is my review for: 


Addison Snow is your typical teenager. She has a family that loves her, friends that make her laugh, and she's wrapped up in the excitement of graduating high school and going off to college to pursue her dream of becoming an author. When her mother, who also happens to be Addison's best friend, dies unexpectedly, her world comes to a crashing halt.

Death changes everyone...

To make the pain go away, Addison and her father travel down separate, dark paths. She chooses to end her grief forever, while he drowns his sorrows in the bottom of a bottle. How do you learn to live again when the most important person in your life is gone?

Addison struggles to pick up the pieces of her life. Instead of getting back to being the carefree teenager she once was, she's stuck handling all of the responsibilities that should have been her father's. She has no time to grieve, no time for emotions, and no time for happiness...until Zander Reinhardt walks in. All it takes is one little handwritten note on a napkin to kick-start her back to life and help her realize that maybe there's more to that life than pain.

But can it really be that simple? Can she really trust this man who makes her feel alive again for the first time in a year?

Addison and Zander both have secrets they aren't ready to share. When the truth finally comes out, is it enough to tear them apart or has something bigger than themselves always been watching over them, pushing them together, making sure they both get their happily ever after?

My Thoughts

Death changes everything.. 
That phrase kept repeating inside my head. 
Everything seemed to change in Addison's life as soon as her mother passed away. Her father can't get over the grief, she has to take on the responsibilities of a grown woman instead of living her teenage life, happy and carefree. 
She's devastated by her mother's unexpected death, hurt by her father's unwillingness to clean up and depressed from the turn of events that has taken place. She wants to be free from her life so she does something dangerous to escape the constant pain.

"It's easy to forgive someone for the hurt they've caused you. Forgetting is impossible"

Afterwards, she starts seeing a therapist to help her cope with the obstacles that life is throwing at her, she remains in control of her parent's bakery, and her father is still damaged. But this is about the time that Zandar walks into her life and for the first time in a very long time she starts to feel hope. 
Hope for the future, hope in life, hope in herself. 

With the help of her therapist she starts to see things differently and starts to open herself up to Zandar, she needs someone to comfort her and be her rock when she can't take it anymore, Zandar becomes that and more but what happens when there is a secret that he has yet to tell her and breaks the foundation that they worked on building? 

"I don't want to do anything that will make him leave because I don't want to be strong anymore. I'm so tired of being strong"

This book... THIIIISSS book seriously did a number on my heart, mind, and beliefs. I won't give away the magic that happens in here but lets just say the comparisons that Addison kept making made me curious and then the note that was left in the office was a mixture of freaky and heartwarming. 

It took my mind off what is impossible and made me believe in the possibility , even if I didn't want to believe in it, Tara Sivec forced it on me and told me to swallow it down and made me feel like I have always believed in this impossibility. She took me out of my comfort zone and led me straight to the uncomfortable but she gently guided me through so it wasn't painful, it was soothing to my very soul. 

I have always been a spiritual type of person, not very religious but I do believe that I have loved ones watching over me and this book confirmed my beliefs in that.

I loved the relationship between Zander and Addison, he was good for her and she was just what he needed in his life. They were the epitome of two halves of a whole, ying to yang and all them lovely adjectives. They weren't annoying characters that needed to grow the fuck up and stop annoying the shit out of me.. I loved them, I loved how Addison grew not only as a person but as partner, someone who could be an equal to Zander, stand on her own and know when she needed to just let it all go and live her own life... 

"With the help of a boy who loved her more than she thought possible, and the of the most important person in her life watching over her, she learned how to move forward. She learned how to live"

Gahh just fan-fucking-tastic shit...

The only reason I am not giving it 5***** is because I felt it should have been a bit longer with a more rounded out ending. LOVED the epilogue but I wanted to know more about her and her father's relationship, how Meg was doing, just small things that I wanted to know more about.

I give this book a 4/5 and if you want to check out for yourself go here: